Almost a decade ago, during the middle of the summer-vacation, my whole life fell apart in the matter of weeks. My then-girlfriend left me for another guy. While that’s very much behind me now, it really marked me. But it also very much set me free (opening your eyes and rediscovering who you are kinda stuff).
I remember vividly listening to this song on repeat-1 during the weeks and months that followed, silently whispering along with the lyrics and asking that same question: When did you fall? When was it over? However, I wasn’t asking her. I asked myself. How did I end up being so hopelessly dependant on her? So much, in fact, that I didn’t know what to do with myself when she disappeared from my life.
I didn’t just let her get away. I tried to do everything to get her back. I went through enormous lengths to get what I wanted. And nothing could have stopped me. I gave it my everything. In the end it was a good waste of time. Luckily…
I just came across that very on Spotify and I kind of enjoyed thinking about that time because it was the summer I realized how disturbingly crazy I get when I set my mind to something. And in recent months I’ve started to feel that same drive again. And it’s intoxicating.